RacecaR
Mood:  energetic
I hear the alarm and i get up and i put on the kettle and sit down and wait till i hear the kettle whistle then i get up and i pour myself a cup of hot steamin gwater as it is steaming i sit there and i study every molecule and i see how many of the molecules in the water vapo float up in the air and then i see hw all thes particles go on thier seperate way but yet i know that they are not on a journey for a long time till they are reunited again in the air as water then i see that all these molecules are not al the same but they are in on ay or nother. then i get out the voffee and i put in two spoonfuls and i stir it and i add the concotions to make it a good cup of joe. as i sit there and i look out the window and i see the light is growing brighter and brighter then i finish my cup an di put it in the sink as i get dressed for my day. then i walk out the door and i step on to the sandy beach and i walk my way to the waters edge and i sit there and i look out over the ocean and i feel the warm breeze from the water blowing gently on my face as i look into the east and i see the sun to start to peak up over the horizon of the ocean which is as a ruler would be very straight it is funny there are no waves just light gleamin down from the heavens above. i look up into the sky and i see a pallet of bright colors and i see all the ones of the rainbow it is so magestic and beautiful it warms my heart and my soul and i sit there and i see how much it is and i do not wonder about anything nothing is in my head and no thoughts are being born i am as still as the the water in the ocean. the sun grows louder in volume and it grows into many shapes in my mind and i study it and i gain its stregnth and i also wonder why it is that way and i just sit there. no one around no one is even up yet yet i sit there and i look at it and i just am in aww. then as i look farther out i see this faint spot rise and then sink into the water and i wonder what is that and it gets closer and closer. so i take my body board out from its nest and i try not to wake anyone and i get on it and i am not an avid swimmer as many may know and theni fear nothing becuz i am so entangled in my curiosity and i go out on the board in the ocean dodging the little wake it posses and i paddle out as best as i can and i see the image get bigger and bigger it is a grey and shiny thing in the water and as i get closer i can see there is more and more of these shapes and then i notice it is something magnificent. it is a dolphin and there are a whole bunch about 20 as my eyes can see they rise up and down swimming like there is nothing anywhere around i am struk with this feelin of wow i am seein something people only dream of and as i get closer so do they then i am about 4 feet away and they are as curious as am i and they swim closer and closer till we meet and i get to stroke one as it stops and looks at me and sputters words i do not understand but for one moment i can i hear its words and i see what it is that is so beautiful and i then watch as they go and swim free and move from under me and i just sit there and i see that i have made an encounter that is not usually common to any human so i feel as if i am not like others i am unique and i am just so frozen by the mornings happenings i forget to paddle back in. then i hear a faint voice call my name and i look at the person on the shore and i see a wave and i wave back and then i paddle back in becuz now my heart is full an i can see all there is to see with my heart and i get into shore and i share my experience and i know for now what i have seen and done it was the most magestic thing i could ever been blessed with and i sit there with my companion i know now that life is short and precious and that all things in life can not always be perfect but no matter what i can make my environment around me i may not be able to choose what it is but i can alter it to what i need to suit me and with this i know that there is no need for argument and no need for confrontation. at this young age of 17 i can see that this is the way i am gonna be and i have been opened up to many things and i see at a young age the way i have to be and it is the truth becuz i have been touched. as the hours pass on i share my experience with few but mostly in my mind over and over again becuz no one will believe me but i do believe. as i pull away from the sandy island in maryland and i go back to my concrete and asphalt world i remember and take with me the adventures i have see which to me is the best thing in my life i have ever seen and encountered. I see that dolphin in my mind and know that peace is his name and that is the way i want to be at peace and just to live in this world at peace and have all around me be ahppy becuz he has done it to me and i need to do it for everyone around me and now you can know why i am the way i am not touched by an angel but touched by one of God's greatest creatures so magestic in its own right and smartest too. not many people know this and not many will or will they believe it but it happened and i experienced it and that is that matters to me. so before you think remember you make your environment the way you want it from whatyou are dealt and do not ever run out of the peace and happiness you can give to everyone share all and all will share with you.

states of matter
Mood:  incredulous
as in anything stuff exists in many forms but for this here we look at water or h2o this compound exixts in three states as we come to learn in chemistry gas liquid and solid. as many things in life it can exist alone in either of the three states it resides in but when it is in all three states at once we see this magnificant form to take shape. as all things in life we can also exist in three states of matter to say that is mind body and soul we can't really achieve this but when we do it is like the clouds opening up and lettin the sun in and shine on allthat is to come into our paths as we try to do this it is hard yet very easy in ways we can not explain so many times we can walk into a room and see ourselves lighten up the part so to say or just bring a sense of enjoyment to all that are there in the room with us but when we acutally realize what it is we have then we can see that the three forms are all in function all the time we exist in only two forms at once but as we grow and mature into our manifestation of life do we understand the full potential of our complete entity to achieve this magnificant happening of life yet sometimes we may be too old to fully know when this occurs or how to make it occur all we can do is gain access to all the things that make us great and make us feel all cozy inside to understand where it all starts and if have all these things in your life then you should take hold of what it is you have and keep it for along time it may be a person a pet a thought but for us all isn't it all of this to make it that once happening we are lookin for that tri state formation so as we go through this life lookin and tryin to achieve this we should take head to all around us and pick out what it is that makes us what it is we like in life and what builds us up and keep that becuz it is a bad thing to let those things go and if we can take all that we have that build us up then we shold cherish that and hold that as we come closer to that tri state happening so look listen and feel with our mind soul and body to what it is that makes you feel as if you are gold so that when we grow old we can not say what was not told it is our time in day and what we say that will make our day the day of days and we will always become that perfet state of mind which we can not be blind and to all is the thing we will all come together and sing as will all in ourselves be whole so there is the truth be told.

Time
Mood:  not sure
Time is the key to many things in our lives as we are sure that we can do many things in time. as we sit here the light rays come into our windows throug the shades that break it up and distribute it in many of the ways our brains can precieve it and then we can also look at time too this way. our minds use time to make decissions now some of them can be made in a split second and then some of them take forever it seems in our realitivity of reality of the existance of our lives. over time our minds fire like that of the nerves firing in our minds to lighten up the pathways they travel. time can also be put up against that of math or the theories of probablitity we have to come to know over our vast years of time in school. see in probablitiy we use some variable usually x over a extended plotted scheme usually time. this seems to be the key factor of how things happen in life. se light and time are so close becuz light travels over time in space and in our minds space and time are the key factors and the variable of light can be interchanged with many other features our minds comes up with. we can make decissions to hold prejudice or we can make decissions to say words that muttered together mean nothing but eating away at someone elses integritity but if tehy are strong our time is wasted but we can use this power to help others or help ourselves or also we can use them for nothing at all. in time as we build our variables over time to the ut most nuber possible it is that we over come what it is we wanted to change our minds on. many of these things happen all the time everyday for a matter of fact but yet we take it for granted how our minds and time work together till we sit down and look at that ray of light broken into its primary colors do we see what it is that we have to work with. sometimes we use things to mask our minds which only sedate our minds from using time but as things move on we think and think and it drives us nuts of what we have to do to make it more a precievable pathway for us to gain access to success and satisfaction too. all things in this world relate to numbers and we have to know this to move forward so for many of use leave this alone and just go with what it is that we have and for others we sit and think of how we can play the numbers so we can benefit from them and use it to help us gain our strength to this happy way of life. So let time do what it has to but never be left in bewilderment of how it works remember numbers always play a part.

Snow
Mood:  spacey


it takes a mere snow storm to find out who you are. i am who i am not becuz i any say in it but becuz it is who i am. i can not change who i am all i can do is live with this mere existance of who i am and evolve from it what i need to be who i am. i do not have all the answers i do not have all the luck i do not have anything related to what it is i need for mere existance of this petty life but yet i do exist. i have had my tides turned and i had my seas boiled i have had the sun set on my days of dawn i have had many tears in sorrow i have had many laughs but not without pain i have had times of frustration i have had times of hardship hell my whole life has been a hardship who do i kid. these things said and all i still exist i still rise up every morning as does the sun i still walk on the ground many have before me i still breathe the air someone once did millions of years ago i still serve a purpose in this universe on some reckoning i can not understand i still fill the planet with life i still fulfill statistics but yet i remain to exist. i remain humble i remain calm i remain in good faith i remain fair i remain that man who i was to be when this life of existance was given to me. I do not judge i do not hold what is not true true i neither call a lair a lair i do not sing a song that is to be sung i do not cry when it is time cry i do not laugh when it is time to laugh i do not do what is expected of that of the mere existance of our spieces on this planet when it is thought i will but yet i exist. i am not rich i am not poor i have nothing i have everything i have what i need i have not much to give all i have is me and myself but yet i exist. i have been beaten i have been humiliated i have been persecuted i have been troubled i have been hurt i have been scared i have been scared i have been happy i have been joyous i have been blessed i have been soluted but yet i still exist. i have made wrong decissions i have made bad choices i have made good choices i have gone with the flow i have stood up and spoke out i have sat back and cowered but yet i still exist. many have taken advantage of me in my days and many have seen what i am are scared of who i am or what i am i can not change this all i can do is exist. things in life happen for a reason i say things in life come about for reasons we can not explain all we can do is accept that there is a greater plan out there that we have had set forth for us by things we can not judge we can not really determine what we will do or what will accomplish in life becuz we just exist. you can sit there and say yes i can plan yes i can accomplish but in all actualitity we do not we just follow a plan that has been set forth for us in this dimension we call our reality all we can do is exist in this reality and become what it is we are on path for. so as i go on with my life i will continue to exist and follow what the numbers in life have been played for me and i will connect the dots of the mere existance of this dimension or reality. many i have touched in my life and many times things went arye but somethings worked out and somethings still are in my memory, but those times that they did not are not mistakes but yet they are times when things happened for a reason not of learning but becuz they happened to early in the plotted scheme of this reality which causes it not to work out. this is the way evolution has worked for many years and will continue till the day of man has stopped existing in this universe. But those things we have not come yet to have in our existance that are too early hopefully will become part later on but that is the only thing we can exist for have the faith that our exsitance will be that of what we have had and loved and lived that is gone so prematurally that seemed as if it was a little bit of a taste of what we want and what we exist for it will come back to us in the same form someday later on in our existance. so as i say we exsit we do not live and learn we do not have all the answers but yet we do time and life and reality is all what you make it so do what you have and remember when you find something so good that it seems to be wrong it is not wrong it is just a premature look at what it is you have come to over your years of existance that you want for you or is plotted for you and it is your match. so hold on to that feeling and remember it so you can always come back to it later on. becuz when it all fits together and doesn't feel too good to be true then you know it is time in the sequence for that. i will live i will exist i will never forget what i have had that is what is a premature look into my plotted scheme so therefore I WILL EXIST.